It can’t be tamed from now on…
I chose the Wild or did the Wild chose me?
That beast inside of me, is roaring……..
So loud I can’t ignore it…
That beast was tamed for such a long time..
Now it seeks the Wild, the Freedom…
I let it out, before it kills me….
It’s screaming and howling…
In pain or pleasure…I don’t know
I look in it’s eyes….
Dark eyes, wild eyes…
Eyes filled with rage and fire….
It pushes me and all I ever was aside…
Starting to laugh and starting to cry…
I close my eyes, pretending not to see…
But I see it all…
I see the Downfall of myself…
There are no rules, no limits anymore…
From now on it’ll always want more…
The beast comes to me..
It knows it is free….
I know I am free….and I am not free at all…
The beast slowly shows his teeth…
Like it want’s to say “Rescue me!”
I shake my head, because I can’t.
Now that it’s free, I know it will be killing me…
The beast understands…..
It knows where this will end….
I’m looking around to find some help…
I need to conquer it but I can’t
For far too long I have been hurt
I am too weak to fight…
I see a mirror on the wall…
I look at it, while the beast grabs my throat…
I am standing there, looking so innocent..
I know I was but this is the end..
No way back, no escape…
They have done this to me…
I know it wasn’t my fate…
I have only minutes left…
To be what I wanted to be…
To be who I was just a few days ago….
I feel I’m dying….
Another look in the mirror………
I shiver …
The moon is rising, I am dressed in his light…
For one last time I try to fight…
I don’t know what comes after this night…
All I know is what I see
The beast is free….
The beast is me….
(c) Audrey Valentine 2016
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